Was this guy Benjamin Cain? I used to follow him until he published a bunch of articles grossly misrepresenting mysticism as a selfish, amoral and psychopathic state, and despite all my attempts to argue the opposite he just dug his heels in going "if you believe everything is the Self then any love you have for others is actually just love for yourself and is selfish" and "if you believe the world is illusion why not rape and murder everyone".