This is what it’s like to have an eating disorder actually. Not the hell stuff but the moral fear of getting fat. And having experienced an eating disorder that included restriction and purging, I indeed felt like my hunger was out of my control when I did eat and I was terrified that I might binge eat. The same thing applies with sex, masturbation and pornography I think. Fortunately I’m now healed from both toxic ways of thinking. 😊