OK so that made me tear up. I have a history of an eating disorder too. I'm actually mostly recovered now. But naturally, I am someone who has a curvy body, who if I'm not starving myself will have big breasts and wide hips, impossible to not register as female. I felt throughout my ED that I "enjoy things too much", like food. That I "overindulge". When actually I just naturally enjoy life, and it's OK to enjoy life, and it's OK to be a woman and to take up space and to just be free.

(I am also queer, bisexual that is, and I wonder if that's part of it? IDK)