I used to want to be famous too. However ever since I had a mystical "ego death" experience, I now realise that "thinking about oneself in the third person" for too long is unhealthy and the root of most mental illnesses. Especially if one conflates "one's self concept" with "the subjective experience of being alive, which is the real self". And the more famous people become the more the self concept becomes confused with the real self. Even if you try to avoid it.

And if you're a public figure you HAVE to think about your self concept consciously, because it is your brand. Even if you try to separate it from your "real self", such as drag queens or people with pen-names do.

It's hard to know how to share one's work in a healthy way. I like to share my ideas, my art - but I think now that it's less important to share it with "the masses" than it is to share it with my personal loved ones.

I have really fallen in love with ecstatic dance recently, which is a form of art that only exists in the moment of shared creation - it is not filmed, it is not posted, it only exists in the context of everyone else who is dancing together without any set way of being.

As for why I'm commenting - I'm not really doing it to be read by anyone particular, but more because I think your work is an interesting "jumping off point" for trains of thought my mind likes to go down. And I find out what those trains of thought are as I write. I never expect you to respond.