I think trying to achieve external success and validation as a way to feel self love is fraught. Don't get me wrong, it's great to be beautiful, fit, rich and popular. But it's a moving goalpost. There are always people who are more beautiful, fitter, richer and more popular.

I bet anything those two models have their own struggles you would never guess looking at their Insta.

Something that worked for me, in recovering from my eating disorder, was to investigate what the self is. Not what my idea of myself is... But what the feeling of "I" is, what subjective consciousness is.

Because you're not really "Hakima Tantrika". That's the image of you. The reflection you see in the mirror, the photos and videos, the eyes of your lover or friends. That's you as you imagine you are experienced by others.

But that's not truly you. It's an avatar. A fragment of the real you.

The real you, is the subjective experience of being alive, as experienced by you. It is everything you've ever thought and experienced. It is right NOW. Your experience reading this right now. When you are in flow. Forgetting your ego (the imaginary image of yourself) and just experiencing life.

I think if you explore that, you will discover a different form of self love than feeling satisfied with your image, your reflection, your following, your likes, your comments of validation, and how others perceive you.

Anyway regardless, I wish all the best for you.