I honestly feel a lot of despair and helplessness over all this. There’s nothing that I as an individual can do in my particular circumstances, to save the world. I could devote my entire life to activism and be nothing more than a breath on the wind. I could try and assassinate the owners of oil companies, and either fail or be a murderer (which is against my morals) and even if I succeeded I wouldn’t stop the system itself. I could go completely carbon neutral and zero waste. I could spend all my time trying to convince strangers and friends to do the same. And it still would have only a negligible effect. I could go into politics and try to change things but I might either fail, or only be able to enact change far too slowly. I could try and join a revolution but historically all revolutions have been murderous and oppressive, but a new system might be just as harmful to the environment, as communist systems are in some ways more inefficient at things like farming and manufacturing etc than capitalist ones (just in different ways).

And at the same time there are things in my life closer to hand that I need to also deal with. Loved ones I need to look after.

I am only a single young person, I feel very powerless in the face of this extreme inertia.

And if I dwell on it too much I’ll not be able to function. So I can’t think about it as much as it deserves, because if I do my life (however long it will be) will be even more filled with misery than it already is.

So I try to do my small part, while at the same time trying to find as much joy as I can in life while I can. Kind of like a patient with a terminal diagnosis, who doesn’t know when the end will come.