I don't think it will Yael. Because you make it clear in your articles that you WANT and prefer to have sex in situations where you are loved and you can be emotionally intimate, and that you are considering doing this only because you feel like you can't find someone who will treat your heart right. If that is what you want, nay, need in order to enjoy sex - then forcing yourself to have "meaningless emotionless fucking" will likely make you feel worse.

There is NOTHING WRONG with wanting to have sex with someone you feel love for. And someone that you trust feels love for you. Doesn't have to be romantic love. But it's a vulnerable thing, to let someone literally inside your body. Their movements shaking you to your core. Your most sensitive places able to be hurt - or caused extreme pleasure - depending on whether your lover is safe and caring or not.

I feel this way about sex myself. It's not that having lots of sex makes you a "slut" or that there is anything morally wrong with having casual sex or lots of partners. It's that for me, letting someone into my body, is vulnerable. And for me to feel safe doing that I need to know that they care about me, genuinely, as a person. That they want me to have a good time. That they won't shame me. That I can express whatever sounds I want in pleasure, and not have to stifle myself. That I can let go, in the safety of their arms, and their attention.

I cannot do that with a stranger or someone I don't trust. Some people can and power to them. But I'm happy being the way I am and there is no shame in it. I'm not a prude. I just know what I want and what makes me feel good and what makes me feel unsafe.

I make up for having less physical sex than I would like, by cultivating a very healthy solo sex life. ;)