Honestly, the way you described it makes it seem like it really is a fetish.

It’s not that disabled people can’t be attractive, hot, incredibly wonderful etc. Of course they can. Just like anyone can.

But you’re attracted to someone simply BECAUSE they’re disabled. Not for anything else about them. The men you fall for, if they weren’t disabled, you wouldn’t look at them twice. It seems like say there was a man who wasn’t disabled, who you didn’t find attractive, if he broke his spine the next day and became a paraplegic, you’d find him attractive then.

That’s messed up.

Someone’s looks, their intelligence, their personality — none of it matters as much as the fact they’re disabled, according to you.

Devoteeism isn’t a sexual orientation. It’s a fetish. That’s why when you fantasise during sex you can’t get off without imagining disabled people. That’s exactly what a fetish is.