Great article. I think it's a good realisation although you absolutely should not be ashamed for trying all these new things. Maybe some of the things you want to try (like beekeeping, spinning etc) can be things you can go to a class for with some friends? That way it's more about having the experience with people you love and learning new skills without you having to have all the paraphernalia at home. And I think borrowing rarely used equipment from friends or family is a great idea. I think as a society we need to be more close knit as a community - sharing resources and experiences. Perhaps you can lean more into that without compromising your independence? <3