Can I ask - what is it that you crave about polyamory? What is missing from your life when you are in a monogamous relationship? Is it the same thing you miss when you are not in any relationship? Because I think that would be very interesting to know.

Is your need to be polyamorous connected to a need to not be single, or is it something that only kicks in when you are IN a relationship (because you want to feel free and not constrained by that relationship?)